Bad Weekend.

So, it has been a terrible weekend.

All I have to say for it is, i wouldn't have to be so proud of myself if other people were proud of me.

So, this is going to be a compilation of all the 'Ipod Shuffle Game' questions, because I am bored, and clearly, I have no life. Win for me.

1.How Are You Feeling Today?
Gives You Hell - The All American Rejects
2.Will I get Far In Life?
Pet - A Perfect Circle
3.What Is my Best Friend's Theme Song?
I'd Kill To Fall Asleep - New Found Glory
4. What is/Was High School Like?
Eight of Nine - The Ataris
5.What is The Best Thing About Me?
Slow Bleed - Thousand Foot Krutch
6.How Was Yesterday?
Take It All Away - Red
7.What is my Love Life Like?
Maybe It's Maybeline - Relient K
8.What will my Parents Say To me?
Burning In The Skies - Linkin Park
9.What Song Will They Play On My Funeral?
Be-Headed (Marathon Man) - From First To Last
10.How Does The World See Me?
Tip Of The Iceberg - New Found Glory
11. What do My Friends Really Think Of Me?
In The End - Linkin Park
12.What is the World Keeping a Secret Of Me?
See Me Smiling - Yellowcard
13. How Do I make Myself Happy?
Love With Caution - Silverstein
14.What Should I Do With My Life?
La Grange - ZZ Top
15.Will I Have Children?
Interlude - Attack Attack!
16. What is Good Advice?
In Our Final Hour - Go Radio
17.What does everyone Else Think Of My Current Life?
Through Tomorrow - Seasons After
18.What Type Of Men/Women Do I like?
Days End - Ivoryline
19.Where Will I Live?
Utah - Emarosa
20.What Will My Dying Words Be?
Grenade - Bruno Mars
21. If someone says “Is this ok?” you say?
What's My Scene? - Hoodoo Gurus
22. What would best describe your personality?
Yesterday - Staind
23. What is your motto?
Kiss N' Tell - Ke$ha
24. What do you think of your parents?
Selfish And Cold - Rev Theory
25. What do you think about very often?
I'm Just Fine - The Letter Black
26. What do you think of the person you like?
Beautiful People - Eighteen Visions
27. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Armageddon - Emarosa
28. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Shut Your Mouth - Attack Attack!
29. What is your biggest fear?
Let It Ride - Automatic Loveletter
30. What do people assume when they first look at me?
Light It Up - Rev Theory
31. Describe your first date.
Murder City - Green Day
32.What is your personal religion?
To The Steadfast - The Scene Aesthetic
33. What do you think of your current hometown?
A Party Song (Walk Of Shame) - All Time Low
34. What do you feel guilty about?
Fever Dreams - Circa Survive
35. What embarrasses you?
All I Want - A Day To Remember
36. What kind of restaurant would you open?
Uptown, Get Around - Stereo Skyline
37. How do you feel about fall?
Belinda... When I Am Laid To Earth - Purcell
38. What's your greatest fear?
Saying Sorry - Hawthorne Heights
39. What's your biggest weakness?
One More Sad Song - The All American Rejects
40. What was the last lie you told?
Closer - Lacuna Coil
41. What's the biggest thing you learned in school?
Judith - A Perfect Circle
42. What did you dream your life would be like as a child?
Coffee Thoughts - Papa Roach
43. What was your first serious girlfriend/boyfriend like?
My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dion
44. What were you doing 10 years ago?
Can't Stop This Thing We Started - Bryan Adams
45. What will you be doing in 10 years?
Better Off Alone - Grinspoon
46. What does a cry for help from you sound like?
Can't Take That Away - The Friday Night Boys
47. What do you buy at Wal-Mart?
The Enemy - Roadrunner United
48. Describe your personal political philosophy.
Hello Hurrican - Switchfoot
49. Do you like to travel?
Drift Away - Goodnight nurse
50. How do you feel about your coworkers?
Prayer - Disturbed

What Has The World Come To?

Okay, so admittedly, I haven't been writing as much as I would have liked since i have started Uni. Sorry. But there have been incidents, plastered all over the news lately that have brought out the rage in me, and the only question I have is, what has the world come to?
What has the world come to when, a father would kill his own daughter in an attempt to get back at his estranged girlfriend? What has the world come to when, he posts on facebook that he is going to kill his kid? What has the world come to when he dumps in the body in bushland? How could he kill his own child? It is stories like this that aggravate me deeply. When I read something like this, I get so angry. I am not going to question whether the death penalty should be brought back into Australian society, in the end, I have no say over that. But, do these people really deserve to live?
The only thing I have read/heard about worse than this, was little Darcy, who got thrown over the edge of the Westgate bridge. I am not going to mention this a lot. It is still a very sensitive issue for many people, I am sure, and it still affects me, even not knowing this family. But once again, what could possess anyone to do this type of thing astounds me. It really makes me wonder what the world has come to. There are many people doing incredible good, but so many doing incredible bad. What is happening?

Who Remembers Their First Day?

So, I started University today. And, it's good. It really is. But, my word, is it easy to get lost in a crowd so big. Not even just to get lost physically, but, to lose yourself, to conform into what everyone else. I really admire those who are willing to stand out and be themselves. In my opinion, those that change themselves to fit into a crowd are some of the least confident people going around... not to mention, somewhat despicable. If you do, genuinely, enjoy what the vast majority does, then, feel free, be my guest. But, I cannot stand it when I see someone radically alter themselves to fit in with a particular person, or particular group of people.
This was not my thought when walking around Uni, mind you. It was the opposite. It was the admiration of those, wandering their way through the maze of people and the labyrinth of shadows descending from the buildings, who stood out. Those who, were willing to show the vast expanses of the campus who they are, and who they want to be. But, it was this that got me thinking... "Who in this crowd is showing who they truly are? Who here is hiding something from, literally, thousands of people?" I pondered, and I pondered, but there is no surefire to figure it out. There isn't even a method which could accurately predict most people who are/were acting fake. But, I guess that isn't for me to worry about, unless it is causing said person feelings of sadness, incompleteness, loneliness etc. In which case, it should be everyone's problem. But, in the end, there isn't much I can do about that.
Which, brings me to my final interesting note in this post. Isn't it strange that we can feel so alone, even in such a large crowd of people. Whereby, proximally, we are not alone at all. Not even close.
I guess, I will leave you that to ponder with. In the meantime, enjoy this demotivational poster from despair.com Personally, I enjoy the mixed feelings that arise from the humorous/non-humourous double entendre that is created. But, I guess that's just the smart person in me... Just enjoy.

A Blank Mind.

These last few weeks have not been "A Mind's Blank Canvas" but more of A Blank Mind. I have found it tough to write about anything. You see, as I said earlier on, it is so much easier to write about the negatives than it is to write about the positives. And, to be perfectly honest, life right now, life is good. I have felt absolutely nothing to write about. As I have said to people, I am very easygoing, there is not much that really phases me. So, to feel so inclined to write the rants that I did, and complain, well, those subjects bothered me. But, lately, life has been good. Therefore, I don't know what to write, and this post shall be no exception. There is nothing else I can think of adding to this. Although, I guess it's good that I have nothing to be upset about.

A Lazy Sunday Afternoon

Orphan is a good movie. That is all.

An Amazing Conversation

To be honest, this isn't about one paritcular conversation. Though, it was most definitely inspired by a very long conversation I had. This particular conversation went for hours upon hours, and even though I had work this morning (This happened last night, by the way) I still found it impossible to leave this conversation till 12.00/12.30. I told myself earlier that night that I would be in bed by 11, so I could get a good amount of sleep. Funny how plans work out, huh? Maybe, just maybe, there is something there. So, this post is going to push off into two different parts.
First, isn't it amazing that we can talk to people for so, so long. For hours upon hours. Upon hours. I think that it is such an amazing phenomenon. Who would think that you could talk to one person for many, many hours. It is not often that it happens, but it is something that I find very interesting. To be honest, I have absolutely no idea why this can happen. Something in the brain, I guess, but I do find it very interesting. If you think you know why, feel free to comment and give me a theory.
Secondly, I wondered, how are you supposed to know if someone else likes you, or is fond of you? Is it an innate understanding that we have? That some of us lack? I dont really know, but I do think it is something that is innate to us. That somehow we just know, or at the least, think we know, who fancies us. And by the same token, who we like is the same. I have found it very difficult, practically impossible to convince myself that I like someone. It is something that I find is a natural process. Deliberately trying to convince yourself you do (or do not) like someone, or find someone attractive, is, I find, extremely difficult. Extremely difficult! Practically impossible! So, I guess, if you have some ideas on how you know if a guy/girl finds you attractive, let me know! I am interested to see what people think.

Now, I know in a previous post (See: Valentine's Day... Ugh) I detested Valentine's Day. Well, maybe not so strong, but I did mention that I am not a huge fan. And, I stand by my statement that it is no different from any other day, it just has a name. However, today is Valentine's Day. And in order to not alienate any of my readers (of which there are like, 2) I'll write a short list of some of my favourite love songs (I don't like Valentine's Day, but love songs are the greatest!).
In no particular order:

• Nothin' On You (Feat. Bruno Mars) - B.o.B
• My Beautiful Rescue - This Providence
• Into Your Arms - The Maine
• Whoever She Is - The Maine
• I Want To Know What Love Is - Foreigner
• Here Without You - 3 Doors Down
• Your Arms Feel Like Home - 3 Doors Down
• Mine - Taylor Swift
• Love Story - Taylor Swift
• Let Love Bleed Red - Sleeping With Sirens
• If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn - Sleeping With Sirens
• Yours To Hold - Skillet
• The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script
• When You Say Nothing At All - Ronan Keating
• Keep On Loving You - REO Speedwagon
• I Can't Fight This Feeling - REO Speedwagon
• Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
• Nothing Else Matters - Metallica
• The End Of Heartache - Killswitch Engage
• The Reason - Hoobastank
• November Rain - Guns N' Roses
• Emily - From First To Last
• Wrapped In Your Arms - Fireflight
• Give You My All - Eyes Set To Kill
• Mindset - Every Avenue
• Hero - Enrique Iglesias
• My Heartstrings Come Undone - Demon Hunter
• If It Means A Lot To You - A Day To Remember
• Time - Cute Is What We Aim For
• Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars
• Wait For You - Atreyu
• Remembering Sunday - All Time Low

So, there's a nice long list. Feel free to check out those songs, or don't, it doesn't really bother me. And yes, I might, kind of like Taylor Swift.

Positivity

So, today, I told myself I would write about something positive.
That was until, I did nothing all day. I went for a run. But apart from that, I did absolutely nothing. I sat at home and did nothing.
Isn't it sad that, however unintentionally, we let life slip by like that. Instead of having a good time, or, going out, making the most of everything, we do, almost literally, nothing.
Now, I know that we can't be out, having a good time 24/7. It is just not possible. But, surely, sittig around for a day is not a good habit.
Now, as I told myself, I will move on to something positive. That was just a little rant at myself to make something more of life at this particular moment. No biggie.
Something positive... Something positive...
How good are friends? Hmmm
What about that exercise? No...
Well, I guess all that I feel like writing about in a positive frame of mind is that I am quite a happy at the moment so that is a positive. I have a great job which I enjoy attending which I have been in for a week, and, I think anyway, that I am quite good at. I guess, like everyone, I have great friends. Wow, it really is so much harder to write about something positive than it is to write about anything negative.
So, I don't want to be the fatherly advice giver, or anything, but make the most of your life, and enjoy it. Really enjoy it. Work hard, play hard. And, don't sit around watching TV all day. Unless you want to write a blog post about it. Then, I guess, feel free. But, do some exercise or something as well, I don't want you to die. Oh, and eat healthily.

Valentine's Day... Ugh.

Valentine's Day, Valentine's Day, Valentine's Day. What can I say about Valentine's Day? Apart from the fact it is a day completely driven by 'romantics' that believe because they bought their girlfriend/boyfriend an expensive gift, they instantly become the best relationship partner in the world, Valentine's Day is amazing.

Now, I agree with the premise of Valentine's Day. Showing someone that you love them, fantastic. However, I do not aree with the fact that so many people believe that if they show it on one day of the year, they are free for the rest of the year. If you love someone enough to buy them a $3000 bracelet on Valentine's day, why not show it more often?

Now, there is one other thing that really annoys me about Valentine's day. And it is the, usually, kids, who are able to pluck up the courage to sell someone they like, that they like them, on this one day. Really, there is no difference between February 14th and February 15th. Why, all of a sudden, do you find bravery? Is it bravery? Well, maybe it's just trying to escape the "I'm single on Valentine's Day, I feel like shit" feeling.

Oh yeah, I guess that's bad as well. Valentine's day is essentially a day that makes most single people feel like crap. Yeah, just wait for all the facebook status' and wall posts. "I love you, baby" "Happy Valentine's Day baby." So, I guess, what I'm attempting to show here is my distaste for Valentine's Day. Maybe, if I wasn't so single, I wouldn't feel the way I do tonight. But, I really do not like Valentine's Day. So. Sue. Me.

Letting Out Of Frustration.

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That is all.

P.S. Randomly hitting keys on the keyboard to make senseless words is unbelievably therapeutic. If you feel anger or frustration, comment with a senseless word made by hitting the keyboard. Feel the therapeutic...ness.

Happiness

So, I started this whole thing, mostly, as a means to put some thoughts down in writing. Hence, the title. I know it seems like there are a lot of negative thoughts that flow around in my head. This, I do not think, is the case. It just seems so much easier to put negative thoughts into writing, as opposed to the generic 'normal' thoughts that everyone has. So, for a brighter topic today, I'm awesome ;). Just kidding. I thought today would be a grand time to write the lists I was tempting you with last post. But, just to be clear, I am awesome.
So... Not making you last any longer....

Favourite Songs of all time:
10. The Rememberance Ballad - Atreyu
9. Apology - Alesana
8. Snuff - Slipknot
7. When Two Are One - Atreyu
6. Remembering Sunday (Feat. Juliet Simms) - All Time Low
5. Lose It - Atreyu
4. Caraphernelia - Pierce The Veil
3. Tears Don't Fall - Bullet For My Valentine
2. The Priest And The Matador - Senses Fail
1. Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

Good, no? Well, I know many won't agree with my music choices, but that's ok. Ill respect you're music choices if you respect mine. Also, just incase you don't know, I am by no means, an emo. Clear?

Favourite Songs at the moment
10. My Philosophy - Holiday Parade
9. Afraid - Yellowcard
8. Stay Away From My Friends - Pierce The Veil
7. Nothin' On You (Feat. Bruno Mars) - B.o.B
6. Everytime - Yashin
5. Friday To Sunday - Justice Crew
4. Empty Apartment - Yellowcard
3. Dirty Talk - Wynter Gordon
2. Miserable At Best - Mayday Parade
1. You Do, You Don't - The Friday Night Boys

There is a greater cross section of music there. Lately I have been getting in to more pop/dance music, so that is why.

Favourite Movies:
10. A Walk To Remember
9. Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire
8. War Of The Worlds
7. Saw II
6. The Last House On The Left
5. She's Out Of My League
4. Saw
3. Van Wilder: Party Liason
2. A Nightmare On Elm Street (Original)
1. Dirty Deeds

So, obviously, I have a somewhat minute taste in movies. Horror and Comedy. That is almost all I watch, I am not against action, drama, adventure movies, but do not enjoy watching them as much as I do horror and comedy. I definitely suggest you see Dirty Deeds. It stars Milo Ventimiglia from Heroes and Lacey Chabert who plays Gretchen from Mean Girls. Don't get me wrong it's not the best movie ever or anything like that. But, it is a movie that I found very original, very funny, and well, I just loved it.
So that is all for now. We shall see what else enters the mind of yours truly.

Rant Rant Rant

Here’s Johnny! It’s rant time. Today’s topic: People who get on my nerves. I don’t want to seem like all I think about is people who annoy me or anything. But the topic came up with a friend of mine, and I felt it suitable to write about. Okay, chances are you know one, or many, many people who fit into these categories. These are just a few categories, and obviously there are more than just these, but these are the upper echelon of annoyingness in my books.

· - “Gangsters.” That’s right, I mean you, kid with a slipknot T-shirt on, under a white jacket. Oh, you also have a hat on at a 45 degree angle. You are a legend. What’s that, it’s also 35° and you have skinny jeans on? Now, I don’t like to hate on people because of what they wear. There could be anything going on in their life that makes them want to wear what they wear, and this will sound shallow of me, so if you get that opinion, feel free to note it, but, a skinny white, 14 year old should not be listening to Slipknot, or any emo music, and follow it up by wearing a white Adidas jacket, and a hat that is the most pointless sunsmart advertisement you will ever see. If you remember, kid, that’s what hats were invented for, blocking out the son.

· - Okay, well this is one is obvious, but all you ‘women beaters’ out there, if you were to be sitting tied to a chair, helpless, I would not hesitate to punch you in the face. Hitting women, in a show of superiority is something that, no matter who you are, friend or foe, I will never, ever condone. I don’t want to sound patronising to any girls out there, so I will note here, this also applies to hitting anyone smaller than you, but, admittedly does not rile me up as badly, but I still find disgusting. It is safe to say that anytime I hear of a guy bashing a girl, or someone smaller, it brings up anger in my body. I don’t hate many things, or people, but they are right at the top of my list.

-· - Next, another obvious one, people who put down other because of a disability, abnormality, their race or religion. Obviously, anyone who does not do this, finds this terrible, so I will not go on about it much, but get a freakin’ life. Once again, if you feel insecure enough to make a serious comment against people of a race or religion, or put them down because of a disability or abnormality, I pity your sad, sad lives.

· - Okay, this applies to both genders. People who talk differently, and change themselves, in order to fit in with other people. Mostly, people who are willing to change their demeanour in order to fit in, or ‘be cool.’ Really, guys? That insecure? Need to change yourself that much? Ugh.

· - And finally, for the girls (mostly.) People who bitch about others behind their backs. Now this, as I have just come out of high school, does my head in. Unlike the second and third points, I forget about this pretty quickly, but it does my bloody head in! The quiet little snickers in the corner, the whispering. Ugh, once again. I know, girls, don’t get angry, that guys do it as well, but nowhere near the extremities of a girl’s back-stabbing. I also know that this sounds like a major generalisation, and I’m sure there are plenty of girls who will claim that they do not do it, and sure, I’ll believe you, but you have to understand, this is at least 95% girls.

I know, this has been somewhat emotion stirring, and/or depressing. So I think soon, I will post my favourite songs in a few genres. Someone, might find it useful, and well, it will make me feel better about my last couple of saddish posts. So, ahhh, keep an eye out for that one, it will be a thriller. Speaking of thrillers, maybe some of my favourite movies as well.

Quickly, on a plus side, I bought tickets to see Mayday Parade, Breathe Carolina and Every Avenue or March 3^rd. Exciting, no? So, to finish off this angry/depressing post, some lyrics from Mayday Parade, from their song, ‘Miserable At Best’, a favourite of mine at the moment.

“But, compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look the sky, it’s not mine, but I want it so”
“Because I know I’m good for something, I just haven’t found it yet”

Stay safe.

The Bushranger

I have learnt that writing a blog is not easy. Sometimes, you just have to wait for inspiration, or for something funny to happen so that you have something to write about. I thought I was going to struggle yesterday, even after just one post… Until, I went to the cricket last night.

I don’t want to sound depressed, or like I’m living in the past, but why, as we grow up, must we lose our excitement? Especially towards the little things. What I noticed was all the streams of little kids being excited by the team mascot, getting an autograph etc. They were even excited to see a charity mascot. Yet, all I could find myself thinking when they were coming around was, “really, you find that exciting.” Initially, I thought it was fair, I’m growing up, you know, I shouldn’t be getting excited about little things like that, no one over the age of 10 should. But, almost immediately my mind switched to a “I don’t get excited by anything little anymore.” Hell, it’s hard to get excited about the big things as you grow up. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to be excited by a costume, that is definitely something that I have put behind me. But, it’s the other things that I want to be excited about. I want to be excited about a bright, sunny day. I want to be excited about meeting new people. But often, as we get pushed into growing up, and as quickly as possible, we lose some of our innocence that allows us to feel this excitement.

It is a weird feeling, I want to grow up, but I don’t want to grow up. I want to be independent and be myself, all staples of growing up, but I don’t want to lose my ability to get excited, I don’t want to lose my ability to have fun. So, do I grow up like a good kid, or do I remain a younger, happier ‘kid.’ To be honest, I would like to do both. So, from here on, I pledge to get more excited about the small things.

Seeing the sunrise, and seeing the sunset are two experiences that I used to love, I would make it possible for me to see the sun set, especially, whenever I could. Now, though, I would much prefer to listen to some music, and chill out in my room. Why? I want to see the sun set again.

The first line... (And my guardian angel)

I may not be the most arty, or the second most, arty person in the world. Heck, if I could draw a straight line it would be a miracle. But, what I do know is that every great, or not so great, painting, drawing, artwork, must start with a line. So this shall henceforth be known as the first line on this possibly great, possible failure of a blog. But, you never know unless you try. Also, just to make it clear, this is not an attempt at fame, no matter how much that first paragraph may make it seem.

Now, to the first real point of this whole experience, and really, what gave me the idea to write a blog. Isn't it strange that something, that really, does not have any meaning, can give you the idea to start something completely anew. Well, this is the story of my 'guardian angel', it's tough love policies, and how it inspired me to write this.

So... As many of my friends know, and are getting sick of me complaining about, I have been sick pretty much all of 2011 so far. What a great start, hey? I don't know why, but maybe karma has it in for me somewhere along the line. Or... Maybe not. I don't know why I became sick after New Years, maybe I deserved that, but something inside of me, no matter how ridiculous it even feels to myself is telling me that becoming sick this week was possibly the best thing that could have happened to me. You see, the plan was for this Friday night was to head off to a bar/club known as the Stammo. As I have been sick, I didn't really want to drink alcohol, or go out until I have/had fully recovered. And as of... a few hours ago, I had not fully recovered. So, imagine my surprise when I read on facebook "Why were there 7 police cars and an ambulance outside if the Stamford?" Did I just avoid getting close to, or into a massive fight? Well, if so, I take that as a hint from my guardian angel to... Well, I don't know. Maybe he/she is just looking after me. Either way, this led me to have the idea to start this blog, as well, it was interesting to me, who says it can't be interesting to anyone else?

So anyway, I have a guardian angel, and it's tough love of making me sick helped me avoid what may have been a crime scene, or something. Or, I just got sick because my immune system has decided to suck this year. So to my guardian angel/immune system, I thank you.
Now, I shall stop wasting your time, so you can do something far more important, like, read a book or do homework or study, or sleep. You should definitely sleep.